Smile (Explicit)

作词:  Edgar  Nathaniel  Sarratt  III/Logan  Cartwright/Ryland  J.  Kelly，
作曲:  Edgar  Nathaniel  Sarratt  III/Logan  Cartwright/Ryland  J.  Kelly，
I've  been  on  the  edge  for  a  while,
我一直活在边缘，
It's  getting  hard  to  breathe,  it's  getting  hard  to  smile,
呼吸愈发困难,越来越难以微笑，
I  don't  who  I  should  call  or  I  should  dial,
不知道该打给谁或是否该打，
I  know  I  need  some  help,  but  that's  just  as  fine,  oh,
我想我需要些帮助，但其实这样也挺好，
All  the  s**t  that  goes  on  inside  my  head,
所有烂事在我脑海重演，
All  the  tears  that  have  fallen  have  been  shed,
所有眼泪早已流尽，
All  the  times  that  I've  been  cut  like  some  thread,
每次都像是被割线一般，
I  can't  describe,  but  I've  been  running  out  of  my  meds,
我无法形容，我的药也快用完了，
You  say  you  need  me,  but  push  me  off  to  the  side,
你说你需要我，可你却把我推到一边，
I  can't  tell  if  you're  telling  the  truth  or  telling  your  lies,
我分不清你说的是真心话还是谎言，
I  never  knew  how  I  should  open  up,  I  keep  it  inside,
我不知道如何开口，我把一切藏在心中，
Ain't  nobody  that'll  help  me,  wanna  hear  my  cries,
没有人会帮我，他们不想听见我的哭泣，
And  you  said  that  you  got  me,  but  I  already  know  that  you  don't,
你说你懂我，但我知道你不懂，
I  don't  need  your  ****in'  help  so  leave  me  the  ****  alone,
我不需要你的帮忙，所以远离我吧，
I  don't  got  a  lot  of  friends,  I'm  used  to  being  alone,
我没有很多朋友，形单影只，
I  don't  like  to  go  outside,  I'm  always  stayin'  at  home,
我不想去外面，我总是待在家里，
And  why  you  always  gotta  talk,  talk,  talk,  talk,  talk?
为什么你总是说个不停，
All  I  hear  is  ****in'  blah,  blah,  blah,  blah,  blah,
我听见的都是些废话，
I  don't  like  you,  now  you're  blocked,  blocked,  blocked,  blocked,  blocked,
我不再喜欢你了，现在却被你阻碍，
You're  my  friend,  oh  no,  you're  not,  not,  not,  not,  not,
你是我的朋友？你并不是，
I  kinda  wanna  go  out,  but  I  know  what  might  go  wrong,
我也有点想去外边了，但我知道我将出错，
I  been  staring  at  my  feelings,  through  the  barrel  of  this  gun,
我一直在意自己的感受，通过这把枪的枪管，
And  I  talk  about  my  feelings,  no  they  always  getting  shunned,
我谈论我的感受，他们总是被回避，
And  I'm  losing  track  of  time,  always  feeling  so  alone,
仿佛失去时间的概念，总是感到如此孤独，
Lately  been  scared,  not  leaving  the  house,
总是担惊受怕，不想出门，
And  I'm  feeling  really  jealous  of  the  people  they  around,
我真的嫉妒他们身边的人，
So  I  close  my  eyes  and  I  shut  my  mouth,
于是我合上眼睛，闭上了嘴，
It's  the  funniest  s**t  when  it  all  goes-,
真是最有趣的烂事当它都，
That  sucks,  s**t-faced,
糟透了，烂醉如泥，
I  tried  to  be  kind,  that's  a  mistake,
我试着去变得友善，却演变成一个错误，
And  they  act  like  we're  friends,  but  it's  all  fake,
他们表现得我们像是朋友，但都是虚假得，
I'ma  air  out  the  laundry  for  display,
我把衣服晾出来展示，
Tell  me,  do  you  know  my  hurt?
告诉我，你懂我的痛么，
You  never  will  until  you  see  your  brother  on  a  shirt,
你不会知道，直到你看见你的兄弟穿着衬衫，
But  it's  okay,  'cause  I  might  blow  my  brains,
没关系，我的大脑已然破碎，
Fun-funny  thing,  before  I'm  seventeen,
有趣的是，在我十七岁前，
And  I  know  that  you  don't  notice  when  I  try,
你不会注意到我的努力，
I  got  way  too  much  on  my  mind,
我有太多的心事，
And  now  I'm  asking  myself,  am  I  even  surprised?
现在我也会问我自己，还会感到惊讶么，
And  before  I  go,  please  tell  me,  why?
在我离开之前，请告诉我，为什么，
You  say  you  need  me,  but  push  me  on  to  the  side,
你说你需要我，可你却把我推到一边，
I  can't  tell  if  you're  telling  the  truth  or  telling  your  lies,
我分不清你说的是真心话还是谎言，
I  never  knew  how  I  should  open  up,  I  keep  it  inside,
我不知道如何开口，我把一切藏在心中，
Ain't  nobody  that'll  help  me,  wanna  hear  my  cries,
没有人会帮我，他们不想听见我的哭泣，
And  you  said  that  you  got  me,  but  I  already  know  that  you  don't,
你说你懂我，但我知道你不懂，
I  don't  need  your  ****in'  help  so  leave  me  the  ****  alone,
我不需要你的帮忙，所以远离我吧，
I  don't  got  a  lot  of  friends,  I'm  used  to  being  alone,
我没有很多朋友，孑然一身，
I  don't  like  to  go  outside,  I'm  always  stayin'  at  home,
我不想去外面，我总是待在家里，
And  why  you  always  gotta  talk,  talk,  talk,  talk,  talk?
为什么你总是说个不停，
All  I  hear  is  ****in'  blah,  blah,  blah,  blah,  blah,
我听见的都是些废话，
I  don't  like  you,  now  you're  blocked,  blocked,  blocked,  blocked,  blocked,
我不再喜欢你了，现在却被你阻碍，
You're  my  friend,  oh  no,  you're  not,  not,  not,  not,  not,
你是我的朋友?你并不是。And  why  you  always  gotta  talk,  talk,  talk,  talk,  talk?
为什么你总是说个不停，
All  I  hear  is  ****in'  blah,  blah,  blah,  blah,  blah,
我听见的都是些废话，
I  don't  like  you,  now  you're  blocked,  blocked,  blocked,  blocked,  blocked,
我不再喜欢你了，现在却被你阻碍，
You're  my  friend,  oh  no,  you're  not,  not,  not,  not,  not,
你是我的朋友?你并不是。