My Own Person

Been rotating the same two outfits for three years now
Waiting for some kind of inspiration
To make me feel like I'm my own person
But buying new clothes just makes me feel down
Having new style would 'cause me more
Attention and I don't feel like I'm my own person
I just feel like some other version of me
Been talking about the same problems for years now
But nothing I do seems to make things happen
I try too hard guess I gotta keep searching
Can't help but think I just stand out
No matter what I do it's bad
It's hurting and I don't feel like I'm my own person
I just feel like some other version of me
I wanna blend into the background
I wanna be nobody and never make a sound
But I wanna start feeling like I can be myself
Oh wherever I go bad thoughts are lurking
I try and I try but I'm not my own person
I need new shoes these ones are worn out
I'll buy the same pair just a different
Version 'cause God forbid I put some effort in and
It would be nice if I wasn't filled with doubt
Oh I can't help but feel that I've got some
Kind of curse and I don't feel like I'm my own person
I just feel like some other version of me
I wanna blend into the background
I wanna be nobody and never make a sound
But I wanna start feeling like I can be myself
Oh wherever I go bad thoughts are lurking
I try and I try but I'm not my own person
I wanna be buried in the ground and
I don't want anyone to ever dig me out
And I've never had a sense of self
Oh the longer I stay here the more
Things worsen I'll never be my own person
I wanna blend into the background
I wanna be nobody and never make a sound
But I wanna start feeling like I can be myself
Oh wherever I go bad thoughts are lurking
I try and I try but I'm not my own person
I wanna be buried in the ground and
I don't want anyone to ever dig me out
And I've never had a sense of self
Oh the longer I stay here the more
Things worsen and I'll never be my own person