rest up (Explicit)

All by myself, 4:30AM
Why can't I sleep now?
I really urge to call you again
I know it's not real, just stuck on repeat
I'm sorry but I never intended
To put this weight on you
But honey I'm
Darling I'm trying to get better
I keep forgetting these things, that are important to me
Darkness gets stuck on my mind then I get blinded
I wish I could get a break so I can rest up
And I could finally see what really matters to me
Woke up again
What can I do to get my shit together?
I thought the nights were made for sleeping tight
They just bind my sight
In my head, a void, such a waste of time
Yeah
I keep forgetting these things, that are important to me
Darkness gets stuck on my mind then I get blinded
I wish I could get a break so I can rest up
And I could finally see what really matters to me
But honey I'm
Darling I'm trying to get better
But darling I'm
Honey I'm trying to get better