Between Me, You & Liberation

She rested her head upon my chest
Sensed liberation in between breaths
Wonder if sex is what she found it in
Peace  found it laying down with men
Wasn't there to judge her  many ways I loved her
It was more than bodies we shared with each other
We lay under the cover of friends
A place where many lovers begin
I began  to feel her body shake in my hand
Body language  it's so hard trying to understand
Usually after sex  it's a good feel
Shook by silence  emotion stood still
I could feel a tear spill from her grille
Hurt from before that began to build
She told me hold me  the story she assembled it
Tellin' it  trying not to remember it
It was a story of innocence taken
Thought she could redeem  through love makin'
When she was eight she was raped by her father
And tried to escape through multiple sex partners
Felt pitiful  she had only learned
To love through the physical  inside it burned
My heart turned  I thought of what this man did
She forgave him  she grew to understand it
Her soul was tired and never really rested
Only with men through aggression
Said it was a blessing and it happened for a reason
By speaking it  she found freedom
Between me and you
Sometimes I wish a  careless whisper
Still could be heard  without speaking a word
Because of you I'm stronger  I'm afraid no longer
I feel so alive lately  you have liberated me
She laid  I watched her breathe
Happy to be here  not afraid to leave
I couldn't conceive her not being here
Death in her face her not having fear
Less than a year she was diagnosed with it
Memories of that year  so close and vivid
Happiness  would only visit  once in a while
To watch an adult  becoming a child
Somehow  I knew she'd make it
The life of one so given early would God take it
Hurt she placed in  hope and prayer
Hurt she placed in chemo and lost hair
I stare with my eyes closed
Wonder when the body leave does the mind go
Watchin' Jordan became less important
Seeing this disease eat away my aunt's organs
According to doctors there's no cure
We went through doubt  and cases of insure
Wish I knew then how to heal with herbs
Knew a part of her I could heal with words
But the Creator was sending for her
What seemed like the end was the beginning for her
Like that  she didn't want us to remember her
No more medication did she want us to give to her
It spread from her liver to her lungs to her last breath
Only to be freed through death
Between me and you
He spoke with his eyes  tear-filled
A lump in his throat  his fear built
My whole life it was instilled
This ain't the way that men feel
A feeling  he said he wish he could kill
A feeling  not even time could heal
This is how real life's supposed to be
For it to happen to someone close to me
So far we'd come  for him to tell me
As he did  insecurity held me
I felt like he'd failed me
To the spirit yelled 'help me'
I'd known him for like what seemed forever
About going pro we dreamed together
Never knew it would turn out like this
For so long he'd tried to fight this
Now there was no way for him to ignore it
His parents found out and hated him for it
How could I judge him  Had to accept him if I truly loved him
No longer he said had he hated himself
Through sexuality he liberated himself
Between me and you
Liberation
Peace