Doesn't matter

I'm lingering on when they kiss
Leaning towards this abyss
And of lately the only people I can stare
Are the unraveled ones with their hands laying bare
But their hands are numb and empty
Their dull silence soothes me
Loud whispers in my back as if I couldn't hear
Thought I left ghosts behind
But they're just coming near
It doesn't matter does it
If I know any exit
If I believe in god
And if god does exist
Rage as a fabric through and through
Like that gaze used to do
'Cause those suicidal thoughts that are still in my head
Gives her that awful side-smile when I lay in bed
It doesn't matter does it
If I know any exit
If I believe in god
And if god does exist
She's barely feeding but she'll deny
Ribbon-legged she passes by
Until she surrenders in the midst of the street
And the guys simply stare but continue to eat
It doesn't matter does it
If I know any exit
If I believe in god
And if god does exist
And if I'm cast out
'Cause I wanted some more
And if this guy dances too close to the shore
And if I could just push this door chalked on the wall
And if after the void there's somewhere else to fall
Forget I said it
I soliloquize
It's stinging nettle
Their hands on their thighs
Run if you stole a shard of sunlight yeah yeah
Don't ever tell them I've got your back yeah yeah
Choking to tears with shards of sunlight yeah yeah
Run if you stole a shard of sunlight yeah yeah
Run if you stole a shard of sunlight
Don't ever tell them I've got your back
Save all you can
Choking to tears with shards of sunlight
You won't be found
Run if you stole a shard of sunlight
And never come back
It doesn't matter does it
And never come back
If I know any exit
And never come back
If I believe in god
And never come back
And if god does exist
It doesn't matter does it
And never come back
If I know any exit
Save all
If I believe in god
And if god does exist
Save all you can
You won't be found
And never come back