Father Daughter Dance (Explicit)

Oh I wish my heart wasn't broken from the start
I never stood a fighting chance
In all my days, from my cradle to my grave
I'll never have a father-daughter dance
It was always drama
I'm sorry I'm always so anxious and numb
Just sorry I'm fucked up
I really just don't know how to love, how to trust
I try but when I talk about him
I should probably cry but
He's nothing, he's no one, a stranger
Oh I wish my heart wasn't broken from the start
I never stood a fighting chance
In all my days, from my cradle to my grave
I'll never have a father-daughter dance
I'm never alone
But, God, I'm so lonely
I fuck with my phone
Hoping it'll help me with my anxiety
But it don't
I don't even know if I wanna have kids
I don't wanna fuck 'em up the way he did
Sometimes I wonder, if I'd had a dad
Would he had protected me
From all the bad shit, the bad men?
Would I even be the same person?
Somebody to help with the flat tire
Somebody to walk me down the aisle
Somebody to help with the flat tire
Somebody to walk me down the aisle
The worst part of this is I'm not even sad
How do I miss something I never had?
Oh I wish my heart wasn't broken from the start
I never really stood a fighting chance
In all my days, from my cradle to my grave
I'll never have a father-daughter dance
Yet everyone who has pain don't turn to ice
I'm sure that at the time you tried your best
But all of this has made me who I am
Without that father-daughter dance