complex

I'm 21
The edge is razor thin
Between being numb
And feeling everything
Good days only serve as relief again
Now I'm watching as I waste away
My days again
It's a cross dissolve it's a scene
I've played before
And the leading role that I thought I'd hold
Doesn't listen to me anymore
But I'm wearing his boxers I'm being a good wife
We won't be together
But maybe the next life
I need him like water
He lives on a landslide I cry in his bathroom
He turns off the big light
I'm being the cool girl
I'm keeping it so tight
I carry home while
My friends have a good night
I need him like water
He thinks that I'm alright
I'm not feeling human
I think he's a good guy
But it's complex it's a complex
Triangular
I can see them now three points at which
I let myself down
I was just a girl
What's the excuse now
Too regular
This pattern
I've been taking shelter in
Reaching new highs
When I was 19
I wanted to die
Now I just wanna kill you
But I don't want to paint you the victim
And I talk a good game
I'd die for you just the promise you'd listen
But I'm wearing his boxers I'm being a good wife
We won't be together
But maybe the next life
I need him like water
He lives on a landslide I cry in his bathroom
He turns off the big light
I'm being the cool girl
I'm keeping it so tight
I carry home while
My friends have a good night
I need him like water
He thinks that I'm alright
I'm not feeling human
I think he's a good guy
But it's complex it's a complex
It's a complex I'm a complex