Still

I don't know how to feel things small
It's a tidal wave or nothing at all
I can't believe in heaven now
It's been hell on earth for a second
Okay you win I'll end my life
Drive to the bridge just to overthink it
I never jump it's a crutch of mine
Drive to the bridge just to stand there thinkin'
My life stands still
I need someone you can't erase
'Cause I lost myself to a dream I had
And I never give it all away
But I miss feelin' like a person
'Cause I read those things people have to say
They make me feel like I'm not a person
White little pills take it all away
Drive to the bridge just to stop thinkin'
And I can't stand still
Keep thinkin' 'bout how to fix my life
I think that when is the bigger question
'Cause I don't know how I'll feel tonight
Might make an impulsive decision
I'll cut a piece out of my thigh
Felt my heart go skydiving
You got me high for a little while
I still don't know what I was thinkin'
I did it still
Yeah I did it still