Darlin'

Even though you know that
You never said it right
I don't want you to know
Not just to be polite
If you figured the words
You wouldn't let them go
If you worked up the nerve
You'd say it like a joke
I don't know why time
Won't let me go back twice
I know that's bending the rules
But don't that work sometimes
I don't want you to ask what
I am doing here
Nineteen-something-and nine
That was a different year
I've been here too long
Would you like time on your own
If I'm imposing on you
Well it's only 'cause
I had nothing to do
You tell me you know
Like all your thoughts are facts
Like no-one else can see
That everyone's in drag
Go ahead and go I have got nowhere to be
Go ahead and perform your personality
I just want you to know that
If you don't come back
I don't want you to change
I never felt like that
So I'm not gonna ask you to apologize
Think you mighta mistook me
For a different guy
I've been alone for such a long time
I've been so alone
I've been alone for such a long time darlin
If you miss a beat would it be mine
Would you still be mine
'Cause I been alone for such
A long time darlin
You stood in the door
Watched as I wept but loneliness suits me
Just a lie that you told with my name in quotes
There's always something
In me that comes around too slow
Have to let you go now I have to let you be
There was some part of you that never wanted me
That won't happen again and I can take your blame
If you were reading my thoughts
You'd see the ways I've changed
That was somebody else living another life
Think it's time that
I left the thought of it behind
I've been alone for such a long time
I've been so alone
I've been alone for such a long time darlin
If you miss a beat would it be mine
Will you still be mine
'Cause I been alone for such a long time darlin
I've been alone for such a long time
I've been alone for such a long time darlin
If you miss a beat would it be mine
'Cause I been alone for such a long time darlin
No use in me calling for you
I bet you forgot
My name