Someone New (Explicit)

If I could have every thought
As though for the first time
I'd never get sick of
The patterns of my mind
But I am stuck
I am stuck
If things go my way
I'll stay in this room
Where tonight I want to lay
Kissing someone new
With a familiar face
I can't replace
Because remembering no
It hasn't been enough
It's like the partial glow
A bright flower gives off
At night
Color imprecise
What if I told you
It'll all just end the same
And then turned to you
Showed you my game
You'd believe I'm stuck
'Til I get ahold of
A stranger to remind me
I don't contain the world
It is outside can't I see
And in it I'm this lucky girl
And how to play my role
'Til I get too old
By then remembering oh
It better be enough
I'll be covered head to toe
In the faded flower patterns of memories
Of nights like these
Of good times passed
I'll be home at last
And I will give
Myself a ****ing break
If things go my way
I'll stay in this room
Where again I want to lay
Kissing someone new
Who tells me
Something pretty
So that I too
Can feel like someone new