Afraid of Heights (Explicit)

I know that I ****** up when I
Told you I'm afraid of heights
It made you wanna test my courage
You made me climb a cliff at night
You wanted me to jump and I declined
You called me a coward I replied
I don't wanna live forever
But I don't wanna die tonight
When the black water ate you up
Like a sugar cube in a teacup
I got the point you were makin'
When I held my breath 'til you came up
There's been a run of fires downtown
On half-built construction sites
I know you never liked a townhouse
I've seen you climb a crane at night
If they ever catch you at it
I know you'd want me to be proud
That you took a rich man's dream
And brought it with you on your way down
Cause one man's dream is another man's death
I remember when you told me that
Didn't know what to say so I just laughed
But now I know it's not funny
I never rode a motorcycle
I've never smoked a cigarette
I wanna live a vibrant life
But I wanna die a boring death
I know I was a disappointment
Know you wanted me to take a risk
Not everybody gets the chance to live
A life that isn't dangerous
You called me a crybaby
But you're the one who got teary
Tellin' me what you believe
How we're stuck in entropy
How it hurts to hope
Oh it hurts to hope for more
Oh it hurts to hope the future
Will be better than before