lower (Explicit)

And they say they say that is only up from here
But I've hit a new rock bottom every single year
I've been trying to find a reason
Not to stop myself from leaving
But life feels like one big inconvenience
Then you die anyway
Ah-ah-ah
And I've tried every medication
I've tried guided meditation
I've tried going on vacation
And I'm still sad I'm just on the beach
And they say they say that is only up from here
But I've hit a new rock bottom every single year
Little do they know
I can always go lower
I want to get that skin off my body
'Cause I hate the way it feels on me
Going through emotions like a zombie
I can't wait for the apocalypse
I know all my friends are getting scared
'Cause I can't seem to find a way
And my therapist is asking me to hang out
I just might take up on it
And they say they say that is only up from here
But I've hit a new rock bottom every single year
Little do they know
I can always go lower
I keep trying to kill myself
But I keep waking up
Hid my letters take my pills
I guess I'm never taking up
They say the only way is up
But the ground keeps getting closer
They say it will go back up
It keeps on getting slower
I can always go lower