Pool (Explicit)

If I gave you my heart and my word and my trust
Yeah
Would the weight of my love give me some of your touch
'Cause all we got is our word right
If I gave you my heart and my word and my trust
Yeah would you still love me
Would you love me 'cause that's all I can give
Woke up not sure if I slept I ain't feeling well
Mind racing I'm sipping on the ZzzQuil
Manager cracking down the whip 'cause we need sales
Every day is like climbing mountains feeling like it's hell
T see I ain't right and my girl could tell
Should I see somebody and receive help
Started feeling out of body and I'm looking frail
Went vegan trying to get in clothes that they didn't sell
Tornado my whole life was spiraling
Started smoking to be social with anxiety
Mad Man Tour was the name what a irony
Went hard trying to transcend to the higher me
Had it all but it wasn't satisfying me
Always felt I could go harder is what I believed
Hope women numb the pain that will always surface
Tired of running so I had to stop to find purpose
If I gave you my heart and my word and my trust
Would the weight of my love give me some of your touch
If I gave you my heart and my word and my trust
Yeah took a whole lifetime to write some **** like this
Would you love me 'cause that's all I can give
But I figured I'll just give it to y'all
At ten I was drowned and touched when I was in the pool
All the breath left my body where I couldn't move
Violated hand on my private by a bigger dude
Seconds felt like forever really wasn't cool
When he seen me 'round the block he'd smile and laugh
As if we had a little secret and I hated that
Thinking 'bout what he did really made me mad
Even thought about murder wanted to kill his a*s
Told nobody except my cousin
One time he made a joke but he ain't know nothing
I asked God "why me let me know something"
I like girls **** he thought that nigga on something
As a kid all this guilt laid up inside of me
Couple nigga called us gay 'cause we was designing things
I was triggered and that **** really bothered me
Toxic masculinity was building up inside of me
So I had to have women in variety
This the chip that took me out of poverty
I was running from the people and the pain
Tryna bury guilt with the fame
Everybody here when it's sunny
When it's sunny
Tell me who gon' love me through the rain
Who gon' love me
When it's game who shall remain
I just hope you never change
If I gave you my heart and my word and my trust
Would the weight of my love give me some of your touch
If I gave you my heart and my word and my trust
Would you love me 'cause that's all I can give
When you give up all your love to me then I'm gonna make you see
That you're worthy that you're worthy
When you give up all your love to me then I'm gonna make you see
That you're worthy that you're worthy
When you give up all your love to me then I'm gonna make you see
That you're worthy that you're worthy
When you give up all your love to me then I'm gonna make you see
That you're worthy that you're worthy
When you give up all your love to me then I'm gonna make you see
That you're worthy that you're worthy