feelings are fatal

I'm happy for you
I'm smiling for you
I'd do anything
For you for you
It's always for you
And never or me
And I need it to stop
So let me tell you please
I'm always sad
And I'm always lonely
But I can't tell you
That I'm breaking slowly
Closed doors
Locked in no keys
Keeping my feelings hidden
There is no ease
I need it to stop
And I want to be able
To open up but
My feelings are fatal
My feelings are fatal
How many times
Must I keep it inside
I need to let go
And I swear that I've tried
But opening up
Means trusting others
And that's just too much
I don't want to bother
So I'll keep it inside
And no bury it deep
I know it's not healthy
But you won't hear a peep
Though I'm always sad
And I'm always lonely
I could never tell you
That I'm breaking slowly
Closed doors
Locked in no keys
Keeping my feelings hidden
There is no ease
I need it to stop
And I want to be able
To open up but
My feelings are fatal
My feelings are fatal
My feelings are fatal