Tiny Angel (Explicit)

Tiny Angel (小天使) (Explicit) - 360
So this story
Is about a really close friend of mine
I love you brother
My mates talk sh*t about their wives
But I love mine
Yeah we fight sometimes
But ain't that just life
She's been pregnant now for some time
It took us years
And enough tries
I thought it wouldn't happen from my young life
From the drunk times
Or when I tried drugs twice
I thought downstairs had gone and messed it up right
The doctor told me that I need to stop stressin'
The only thing that's working against us is just time
That was true two months by
My wife called me up
While I was workin' at the pub right
She told me I was gonna be a daddy
We both broke down
She said there's something that I done right
I called my mother
Told her I was gonna be a father
Mum cried so did I
I was tongue tied
I can't explain this feelin' but I love life
I've never had a purpose and this had just become mine
To create this little person that's fun size
A little bit of her
And a little bit of me
But I pray he gets his mum's eyes
I say he 'cause I've always wanted a son right
The ultrasound said it's a boy
My little ray of sunshine
It dawned on me
I can't wait to see my son rise
You know what they say about time though
It does fly
Fast forward nine months and suddenly
It's crunch time
It's been a few days of goin' through contractions
Gotta stop watch timin' every moment that it happens
We reached five minutes
So it's hospital time
I call ahead to see the doctors arrive
My wife's laughin'
Now I properly drive like the cops are behind
But there was barely any traffic so we got there in time
I'm a little scared
But she ain't got a worry in sight
She's a warrior
Exactly what you want in a wife
It's been several days of epic pain every day she wakes up
Finally she's comin' to that second stage of labour
I sit next to her squeeze on her hand
Put a sponge up on her head and say
Breathe if you can
I love you so much baby you're so strong
I could never do this but you so easily can
She said the pain is insane like her abdomen's ruptured
Like someone's got a knife
And they're stabbin' her stomach
She's like we have to do somethin'
The nurse said
It's natural
Relax it's just a sign that it's actually coming
She's like
No it's too much it's too hard to get out
I m sayin' any words I think ll help at calmin' her down
Doctor's like
You're nearly through the worst part of it now
Take a look and see my little king is startin' to crown
They all tellin' her to push and she's screamin'
She's saying that it hurts I tell her to keep breathin'
It's like push is the only word that they've said now
Then I'm shocked by the massive scream she lets out
The doctor's like
Yes now the head's out
And then I watch as he quickly pullin' the rest out
It's so amazin' to see my son in the flesh
I can't help but notice
He hasn't taken a breath now
They put a little plastic thing in his mouth
While the doctor's two fingers are slightly pumpin' his chest down
I start panicking
Something's gone wrong
They push me to the side
I can barely see what's goin' on
He's not breathin'
They need to resuscitate him
He's suffocating
I see that it's something major I feel
So helpless I wish I could come and save him
I pray that my son'll make it it's taking 'em f**kin ages
Everyone's in shock
I'm just listenin' in
Holdin' my breath
Wishin' I could give it to him f**k
At 20 minutes now they're stoppin'
They turn around they say
We've lost him
I'm in shock I can't talk
I'm starin' at the ground I can't walk
They hand him to us
Can't believe the size of him
The most beautiful thing I've ever seen
But there's no life in him
My wife's cryin' like
Why aren't they reviving him
I said
They tried for 20 minutes she's like
Try again
Now I'm feelin' like
I'm stuck in hell
This is the worst pain
I've f**kin' felt
I've been ten years clean
But now I'm drunk and on the drugs as well
I'm doin' anything to numb myself
But nothin' helps
I believed in God for that I feel dumb as hell
Can someone please tell God to go and f**k himself
I'm sorry yo it's hard to be faithful
It's painful heaven must be runnin' out of angels
He died from asphyxiation no air in his lungs
A parent should never have to bury their son
Especially one that's so precious it has barely begun
That's one thing in life that should never be done
I prayed for a son
And they blessed me with one
My biggest gift now his presence is up
And I'm crying at the thought
He won't ever feel a hug
Or the tenderness of love that he'd be gettin' from his mum
Sent him from above but why take him
It's like I'm being punished for the negative I've done
And it's killin' me that Christmas time is barely in a month
So I'm doin' what I have to do to spend it with my son
No
Where did you go
Are you alone
How did you get there
I need you at home
Where did you go
Are you alone
How did you get there
I need you at home
I need you at home