reason to forgive (Explicit)

If I just look hard enough I'll find
A place inside my head where I can hide
All the tears and pain you've caused
It's so sad but I admit
With you I'll always find a reason to forgive
And all my friends no longer empathize
As I continue to roll past the warning signs
Singing songs of lines you've crossed
And ****** up crimes that you commit
With you I'll always find a reason to forgive
But tell me oh
Does it kill you
To know what I'd give to
Have the confidence to say goodbye
And trust the voice inside my head saying
"Love shouldn't make you cry"
If I just try hard enough you'll change
And all these years of open wounds won't be in vain
Or maybe one day when I am old
I'll regret the life I missed
'Cause I was searching for a reason to forgive