Illusions

I don't even know who I am anymore
I'm living a lie
The truth is that I'm getting too comfortable
Leaving myself behind
Running after new thrills
sprinting up new hills
'Til it all eventually catches up
I don't even know who I am anymore
I think about how you said
That you loved me but you didn't love being with me
The day you bid me farewell
It's probably for the best
'Cause you deserve the best
And not just the pieces of my broken home
I'm learning the things I've always known
Someone else won't make me whole
Or get the itch inside my soul
I always fall
For the illusion of it all
I don't even know what I want anymore
I'm living the dream
Visions I had on the school bus home
Appear in front of me
Thought that I'd feel different
While my ego's lifted
My soul's been buried underneath my feet
And home feels so damn far
I forget who I am
When I'm gone this long
Forget what I loved so long
Ago So long ago
I'm learning the things I've always known
I reach new heights but feel new lows
Cross paths with many then walk alone
I always fall
For the illusion of it all
The circles in my mind
The endless lives I've tried to lead
Old wounds and new lies
Looking outside not within
I don't want to waithere anymore
I'm done falling for these illusions
Done with these illusions
Done with these illusions
Done with these illusions
Done with these illusions
Done with these illusions