Different

When I look you in the eyes
Something deep inside me dies
'cause I know you won't get better  better  better
You'd rather be right done with love
The only thing I understood
Nothing's ever good enough
I stumble through the words as they're leaving me
Tremble at the side of Your Majesty
And I cut myself just to get them out
This time I'll be different  I promise you
This time I'll be special  you know I will
Just don't leave with me in your eyes
This time I'll be better  I want you to know
This time I'll be special  oh God  make it so
Just don't leave with me in your eyes  your eyes  your eyes
You took my youth  you took my health
And if you're not here I find myself
You're supposed to make this better  better  better
No self-control and no reason why
If I don't change  then we both die
This is it for you and I
Blisters at the end of my fingertips
Praying to a god I don't think exist
Will you listen now
Can you forgive me somehow
This time I'll be different  I promise you
This time I'll be special  you know I will
Just don't leave with me in your eyes
This time I'll be better  I want you to know
This time I'll be special  oh God  make it so
Just don't leave with me in your eyes  your eyes  your eyes
Closer now to the end
If love was the answer
Then what was the question
Closer now  let's pretend
We've never been out here before
This time I'll be different  I promise you
This time I'll be special  you know I will
Just don't leave with me in your eyes
This time I'll be better  I want you to know
This time I'll be special  oh God  make it so
Just don't leave with me in your eyes  your eyes  your eyes