Truth

I was staring at the ceiling
Trying not to say your name
Every shadow in this room feels like it's calling out your face
I don't wanna sound dramatic
But the silence feels so loud
Every thought just takes me back to you somehow
I don't know where it went wrong
I don't know why I still care
But every night I swear
You're still here
If you're gone then why do you feel so close to me?
Like your hand's still holding me in my own dreams
I don't need the truth I just need you near
I'm breaking slowly just to keep you here
If loving you was killing me
I'd still choose you honestly
I don't wanna be free
I just wanna be here with you and me
Every song sounds like your voice
Every street feels like that night
I keep replaying moments like they'll change if I rewind
And though I should be letting go
But I don't know how to start
When every piece of who I am is where you are
I don't ask for much these days
Just a dream where you don't fade
If I'm honest I'm afraid
You'll slip
If you're gone then why do you feel so close to me?
Like your breath is still right next to me
I don't need forever just one more year
I lose my mind just to keep you near
If loving you was killing me
I'd still choose you honestly
I don't wanna be free
I just wanna be here with you and me
Maybe I'm wrong
Maybe it's all in my head
But if this is some break I'd take it instead of
You leaving me