Deep End (Explicit)

Every day I wake up that's a brand-new story
Carry out my plan
I done took my chance from the top I die
If it's a long way down I hope I land
God I'm your child but in these streets
I can't be weak so I'm a man
I can't be beat so I'ma stand
I want my kids know who I am
All full of love ain't had no parachute
From the mountaintop I dive
And she knew I was exhausted from it all now
For you ain't even about if I die
'Cause I got evil on my conscious
But I know that God is watching
But I gotta grind no matter the time
'Cause I know when no one would do it for me
Earn my stripes like riding a bike
A nigga been doin' this shit in my sleep
And my motivation I get from my kids
If there was no them then who would I be?
Who would you bump if there wasn't no me?
What is Gen-Z if there ain't no YB?
I thank God for the music I know if it wasn't for that
Then I'd probably be stuck in a cell
I know a few niggas who should've been home
But caught up and now they all sittin' in jail
Yeah I had me some bitches
I thought really loved me
Until I found out that the shit wasn't real
Fuck it I guess I'ma sit in the field
Count up this money and stick to myself
Ain't no discussion all of the bullshit got me muggin'
I don't gotta say forgive 'em fuck it
I'm still gon' hold these grudges
I been searchin' for some guidance
Prayin' the lord'll show me somethin'
Maybe therapy'll fix it make me different
If it doesn't well then fuck it
I'll be jumpin' off the deep end off the deep end
I been fallin' for no reason
I'm jumpin' off the deep end off the deep end
Uh
I been crashin' for no reason
And it's a long way down I don't know if I'll survive
God gave me battles I don't know if I can fight
So I'm jumpin' off the deep end off the deep end
Uh
I-I been crashin' for no reason
I know my back against the wall
Gotta stand up tall and hold my head
For them days ain't wanna wake up
But I turn my lows into some bread
And when niggas think that they know me
'Cause of the shit that they done read
Uh
How the fame make me feel lonely?
I been livin' on the edge
I been in my head and all I can think about is seein' you
Okay
Told my bitch that I got faith if you got faith in me and you
Uh-huh
But you know I'm starvin' baby I ain't changin' me for you
Uh uh
I'ma fix myself for me but I got things I need to do
So if you come over we can situate some things
Hey
Come in don't come closer don't you run away from me
And she don't seem to see the shit you'd think
Yeah
I love her but don't trust her
Not as far as I can see oh oh
God you did your one with me
Washed my clothes in the sink
Now I'm the one that they wan' be oh-oh Slime
For the ones I love lil ma from open
They got backdoored
But I'm still strong and I'm thankful I just had
Hope you know that I been jumpin' off the deep end off the deep end
I been fallin' for no reason
I'm jumpin' off the deep end off the deep end
Uh
I been crashin' for no reason
And it's a long way down I don't know if I'll survive
God gave me battles I don't know if I can fight
So I'm jumpin' off the deep end off the deep end
Hey
I-I been crashin' for no reason
Yeah I say it's a long way down I don't know if I'll survive
God gave me battles I don't know if I can fight
So I'm jumpin' off the deep end off the deep end