What a beautiful day (Explicit)

What a beautiful day to feel shitty
Not a hair out of place and my makeup so pretty
Sure the sun's shining don't mean that I am
And it never rains in this city
What a beautiful day to feel shitty
What a beautiful day to feel lonely
In a room full of faces where everyone knows me
Not gonna smile when I feel like crying
But I don't want anyone's pity
What a beautiful day
I know I'm not dead isn't it so exciting?
Sad girl on a bench looking for silver linings
Doing my best here's me trying
What a beautiful day to feel empty
All of these friends and still nobody gets me
There's no denying I'm on an island
Wishing that someone was with me
What a beautiful day
I know I'm not dead isn't it so exciting?
Sad girl on a bench looking for silver linings
Doing my best here's me trying
What a beautiful day to feel shitty
The weather is great kinda makes me feel guilty
Closing the curtains and being a burden
If saying it makes me sound ******
What a beautiful day to feel shitty