Pain Paints Paintings (Explicit)

All the pain and the dead weight
That Ive mastered is calling me sensei
Ive been tripping so much I need free mind
Like the thoughts in my head are expense paid
Every-time time that they look me in my eyes
They see anger engulf in a dense flame
That could burn down a city of lost souls
And then circle earth in like 10 days
You dont know I been through you couldnt even guess
I was lost in a state of mind you couldnt find if I gave an address
I was given them FaceTime but the time faced was a non connect
Ive been on to the next move
They all check mine like we playing chess
****you man its no regrets
I been there and I wont forget
I know what it feels like to get ****on and get no respect
When the people you love dont believe until they see a check
So Im throwing the peace sign in the meantime man I must confess
****you man its no regrets
Im off that
I said that I been that
I said I was coming
I pulled right up on em and now Ima spin back
Im in emergence C dispatch
So when I arrive in the room
I get pushed to the front with no kick back yeah
You cannot minimize every second and every minute Im working
I see the tweets but I know you aint eating
Because you cant eat if you chirping
All the pain that burden is 1 of a kind
And 2 for certain 3 of 4 the important reasons why my raps are sermons
4th Im learning to cope with pain while I navigate fame
I paint these paintings painfully right on my window pain
The blood that spills is tainted stained and filled with my distain
The strokes evoke that burning flame that circles earth in all my rage
And washes souls whove lost their way
You dont know I been through you couldnt even guess
I was lost in a state of mind you couldnt find if I gave an address
I was given them FaceTime but the time faced was a non connect
Ive been on to the next move they all check mine like we playing chess
****you man its no regrets
You dont know I been through you couldnt even guess
I was lost in a state of mind you couldnt find if I gave an address
I was given them FaceTime but the time faced was a non connect
Ive been on to the next move they all check mine like we playing chess
****you man its no regrets
So keep checking I cut em like C sections
I aint ****ing with pussies
You come out the stomach and then its a beheading
We dont relate Ive aborted the fake and the rest of you week tenants
Get adopted or Im drinking poison and praying to God
The birth is a miscarriage ****
*****Im a sinner my blood is the paint and you can get baptized
I remember the days I was nothing
And I got em stored in my stored mind like flash drive yeah
I see the fear in they eyes when I speak and I know as I pass by yeah
That life is a *****and Im ****ing her raw
And its straight in the backside yeah
I make a move they checking me on top so they cant get ahead of me
Stirring the pot Im in the stu right in mix and I got the recipe
My pain is the source of energy
No shortcuts headed to destiny
Aint gotta cheque dont even check for me
You can get lost like an identity
My thoughts roam my GPS is the pain from the past that I cannot heal
And when I write these words they drive my brain
To a place that I cannot feel
My emotions spring then fall the seasons change and then reveal
That all my pain was just the focus needed use to the steer the wheel
You dont know I been through you couldnt even guess
I was lost in a state of mind you couldnt find if I gave an address
I was given them FaceTime but the time faced was a non connect
Ive been on to the next move they all check mine like we playing chess
****you man its no regrets
You dont know I been through you couldnt even guess
I was lost in a state of mind you couldnt find if I gave an address
I was given them FaceTime but the time faced was a non connect
Ive been on to the next move they all check mine like we playing chess
****you man its no regrets