Carry Me Away

I was an outcast outsider trouble maker
A lost soul outta control in danger
Didn't have a care in the world
My feeling were numb
Never showing emotion it's easy for some
I don't know how it happened
How I got to this point
But I needed a way out I was stuck in a ploy
I needed another path or I'd self destruct
I was down on my luck my head was so fucked
A menace rolling the streets is what I was
Holding my heat and rolling with the serious thugs
You couldn't tell me a thing I was like my brother
Words went in one ear and out the other
Slanging and banging with a chip on my shoulder
An insane hit the brain
Certified street soldier
So close to the grave(oh)
You at an early age
Can't tell you the price I've paid
Oh the sky overhead it's like a canvas of grey
I don't know how much time I'll be given to stay
From the first spring of light
Till the end of the day
I'm just living my life til they come carry me away
I've been there in LA nights
In the block where I came up
My pops used to hate
When we hanged with them bangers
Guess he knew one day that we'll become us
That's just how it is when you live
Where we come from
Fight don't run is the motto we live by
Get them on the ground and stomp
A mind about ten times
Sure we was just kids back then
I had no remorse for what we did back then
Six of us one call we'd all pack in
Hit the strip and go and get the shit crack in
Gun wars and drug deals I seen them happen
When I started losing homeboys
I wasn't laughing
I looked all around and seen none of them there
That's when I figured out that nobody cared
If we lived or die we'll just get high and ride(oh)
And I wasn't gonna let this happen one more time
Oh the sky overhead it's like a canvas of grey
I don't know how much time I'll be given to stay
From the first spring of light
Til the end of the day
I'm just living my life til they come carry me away
My mother would stand for me every step of the way
She did not judge me she told me I'd win some day
When I was at my lowest when I had no focus
She pulled me out the gutter
Said I wasn't hopeless
Every night she prayed for me
I was out on the street
Chilling on the corner with the hand on my heat
Eyes open wide for the pigs and foes
It's an every day hazard when you hustle for dough
So many nights I didn't come home
She thought the worst
Maybe somebody shot me down without any remorse
Maybe I hurt somebody and I was stuck in a cell
Well I regret all those time
That I put her through hell
When I reflect back on those days my heart aches
And everybody I lost or let down
I wish I could take it
All back and make it better but I can't
So I try to make amends
And be there through thick and thin
Oh the sky overhead it's like a canvas of grey
I don't know how much time I'll be given to stay
From the first spring of light
Till the end of the day
I'm just living my life
Till they come carry me away
Come carry me away
Come carry me away
Come carry me away
Come carry me away