FAITHFUL (feat. NLE Choppa) (Explicit)

Feel like I'm running out of time
And the sun won't shine forever forever
I got my mind on my money and my money
Man **** it whatever whatever
Sometimes I wake up on the wrong side
I don't even feel like gettin' up
But this depression on my brain hope it change
But the rain ain't lettin' up
Can't call it don't know where my head is
Reflectin' on Malcolm and the **** I thought but never said it
To Peter Robin to Kevin all my other friendships
That could have would have should have and then they ended
I isolate between happiness and hopeless
Know what makes it worse
Still wanna get loaded
Sometimes I feel like I can't control my choices
And something takes over and I can't turn off the voices
Sittin' with these thoughts can't escape 'em can't run
Got some bullets in the dresser as I polish my gun
They say a day clean is a day won
But I'm holdin' on prayin' to a god abandoned
Zonin' on the couch starin' at my daughters
Know there's a pill in this house that I'm obsessin' about poppin'
Reservations talkin' the push and pull of the conscience
Should probably pick up the phone and call my sponsor
But don't wanna
When the Percs don't work Xannies won't calm me down
Not enough liquor in the bar w**d growin' in the ground
Trapped by these walls where my brain can't get out
Wonderin' if my mama have to put her son in the ground
We still goin' when the day break
Me and the homies on the same page
Find me in the whip that's my safe place
Feel like I'm gettin' weak I need some AA
Need someone to pray for my soul right now
Everything's looking gray and there's no white clouds
I don't know what to say I got nothin' to write down
On my knees questioning God like "Why now"
I'm lost but I'm found again
I'm up all night I toss and turn
I love my life I got concerns
I've been through Hell on some FML
It's just as well I might lose it
I need some light I need some air
I might be broken I need repair
Don't got the answers think I'm confused
I asked myself "Who are you"
I need you right now Mack to wake up more than ever
Ain't no more w**d alcohol and poppin' pills et cetera
I know these days gettin' rough but they get better
It's a cold world let's go to the Gucci store for a sweater
Feel it deeply in my heart you need this letter
So I pour my feelings out to you before I go and mail it
'Fore I mail it
I don't know what I'm sensin' but I can smell it
When you write me back just tell it
I'ma soak it up inhale it
Inhale it
Heard you got a daughter well I got one too
And she too beautiful barely see her too
See her too
Do you hug her and tie her shoes
Is she reflectin' of you and got a smile that bloom
Bloom
Before you load that gun and shoot
Just know that she be needin' you
The best version of you too
Bah
I would write more but my day about to break
We can meet up face-to-face
Just let me know if that's okay
We still goin' when the day break
Me and the homies on the same page
Find me in the whip that's my safe place
That's my safe place too
Feel like I'm gettin' weak I need some AA
I need some AA
Need someone to pray for my soul right now
Everything's looking gray and there's no white clouds
I don't know what to say I got nothin' to write down
Nothin' to write down too
On my knees questioning God like "Why now"
Why
I'm lost but I'm found again