Bugbear

Being in this space has made me feel
A bit more small and I'm not
Quite sure where I'm goin' next
I'll try to use a map but
With directions I tend to be bad so
I'll use GPS and pray for the best
I've got so many years to flesh
This out and be what I wanna be
But it's confusing to say the least
No perception of time or space or distance to read and
I think I'm going insane
Due to graduate and remain a beast
And ohhhh woooa I just want you to knowwoooa
I feel so brain dead next to you
It's not like you intended to
Hurt me or make me feel that way
And I'm not tryin' to complain
But it just sucks to try and explain
Why I feel like this everyday
Everyday
Sleepin' through your days and skippin' meals
Must sound so unappealing but
I guess it's different when it's the norm
Sinking deeper into whatever this
Is without a hint of reflection
Can't tell if this is the
Calm or if this is the storm
Giving everything I've got equates
To about a shower and wakin' up
When I'm faced with anything I tend to flee
So when I'm thrown into the adult world
Where they do thing that I never learned how to do
I guess I'll live in a swamp or a tree
And oooohooooh I just hope you all knowohhh
I feel so brain dead next to you
It's not like you intended to
Hurt me or make me feel this way
And I'm not tryin' to complain
But it just sucks to try and explain
Why I feel like this everyday
My brain is surrounded by school kids
Who all got their valedictorian course
While I can't care enough about my 3 point 8
No matter how hard I try I'm still
Not trying hard enough to be great