Play This At My Funeral (Explicit)

JB Made This
Julioo!
Alright
My mom was an addict and Pop wasn't there
He wasn't
Trust me I still ain't care
My stepdad came in showed me the ropes
And he died and it's messed up ain't it? I know
I know how it feel when your house supposed to be a home
And you feel like it's nowhere to go
I know how it feel when you try your hardest all year
And you still got nothin' to show
Trust me I know
I never thought I could be anybody but a nobody
God had to prove me wrong
I never thought I'd be able to jump on stage
And people would know my song
I spent twenty-two years in this world
And I'm hopin' I still got twenty-two more on the clock
My little sister is nineteen
Just had a baby that nobody told me about
Nobody told
My calls been goin' to voicemail
How I'ma call on you when you never can answer?
As soon as my life goin' good
It seem like another person diagnosed with cancer
Nobody told me that kids like me who grew up with ACEs die way faster
So maybe I'm already cooked
It feel like my life a disaster
It feel like I'm cursed or trapped in a cycle of life
Where I never could win
I'm used to the hurt
I'm trapped in the cycle of pain where it never can end
Never
I've been on the other side
Nobody told you the grass ain't green as it seem
I gotta go hard the burdens of all of my brothers been livin' through me
They livin' through me
I do it for all of my homies and most of the people
Who told me I couldn't
Said I couldn't
I help anybody that I can
I know they ain't do it for me and I shouldn't
I'm showin' my dog a whole 'nother way to his life
And it do feel good
As long as they smilin' I'm happy
They ask would I change and I wouldn't
I never thought I could be anybody but a nobody
God had to prove me wrong
I never thought I'd be able to jump on stage
And people would know my song
I spent twenty-two years in this world
And I'm hopin' I still got twenty-two more on the clock
My little sister is nineteen
Just had a baby that nobody told me about
Off Addys I'm tripping I'm focusing now
Tired of this way of living I want to get out
It be the niggas who's broke they ain't give me a hand
Be the main ones holding it out
I remember we was close our relationship couldn't advance
'Cause you never showed when it count
Said he was hurtin' they told him to just be a man
So he put his four-oh to his scalp
The burdens of all of my brothers been living through me
Now I just made a M in my sleep
My momma want help with my brother been sit for a B
"Would you just go and visit at least?"
I been hearing the feds got a board with a picture of me
Told the bro ain't no killing this week
Had to learn how to talk the language criminals speak
With this **** till we stiff in the streets
They thought I'd be dead 'cause where I was left at
You don't want to be ahead on the death track
Now I know why my challenges tough
When it's easy the people don't never respect that
Just when I think I'm progressing
Here come a new problem that's causing a setback
Tryna turn all my losses to lessons
I hope I'm evolving enough for my next match
My mom was an addict and Pop wasn't there
He wasn't
Trust me I still ain't care
My stepdad came in showed me the ropes
And he died and it's messed up ain't it? I know
I know how it feel when your house supposed to be a home
And you feel like it's nowhere to go
I know how it feel when you try your hardest all year
And you still got nothin' to show
I never thought I could be anybody but a nobody
God had to prove me wrong
I never thought I'd be able to jump on stage
And people would know my song
I spent twenty-two years in this world
And I'm hopin' I still got twenty-two more on the clock
My little sister is nineteen
Just had a baby that nobody told me about