ok getting older

I stopped drinking don't smoke weed
I wanna know me sober
My friends think I'm boring now
Guess I'm getting older
I stopped talking to my dad
Weight lifted from my shoulder
Better off not seeing him
But maybe when I'm older
Loved my grandma so damn much
Died when I was 12
If she knew that I kiss girls
Would she love me still?
Mmm
Saw my sister graduate
Proud of her I told her
Saw her through her first heartbreak
Guess she's getting older
My friend's mother died last week
I didn't get to know her
She was only 55
That's not even old
My girlfriend says I'm too closed off
I'm trying not to be
I don't want to reach the end not be the best of me
Mmm
If I could find the younger me
I'd hug her and I'd hold her
Say "You have everything you need"
I'm okay getting older