Still Something

I wish people wouldn't feel weird bringing it up
Cuz it's all I'm thinking of
You're all I'm thinking of
And I wish when we talked that I heard your voice in response
Or knew if you could hear me at all
I press my hand to the walls
And I long for a purpose like I had before
And I hate that life feels like a never-ending war
And I learned so much and nothing in these two long years
The world just ended and I'm just standing here
I'm still standing here
And I know now
There's no life beyond this grief
But there's still red wine and sunsets and trees
They make me think of you
Your smile lives in the ocean blue
So I'll keep it all this pain beyond belief
And brag about you to strangers that I meet
Cuz that's still something
That's still something
I wish no one ever assumed that I'd move on
Acceptance is a con
That girl is gone
And I wish I could bottle some joy and make it last
I can't live in the past
The guilt comes in a flash
And I prayed when we were kids
I did it every night
That we would have a healthy long and beautiful life
And in a single instant worse than all of my fears
The world just ended and I'm just standing here
I'm still standing here
And I know now
There's no life beyond this grief
But there's still red wine and sunsets and trees
They make me think of you
Your smile lives in the ocean blue
So I'll keep it all this pain beyond belief
It's an honor to keep it close to me
And that's still something
That's still something
That's still something
That's still something
That's still something