Winter Blues (Explicit)

Damn I feel so loose, I'm about to pop s*it
What's a man to do when he's out of options
I ain't wanna do it but ...
Shhh, hold on
Be quiet, they're coming
Oh, no, no, no, no, no, no
Oh, no, no, no, no, no, no
Oh, no, no, no, no, no, no
No, no, no, no, no, no
I said gimmie that, gimmie that
Gimmie that, gimmie that
You heard what I said
N***a run that, run that
Run that, run that
You heard what I said
I said yeah
Oh, no, no, no, no, no, no
Oh, no, no, no, no, no, no
I remember everything was different
When I tried to get a job and make some money
I was livin' on the street
I walk a lot of miles and nobody wasn't hiring
and I had to stand in line if I was to get something to eat
Cause I ain't had no homies and my girl depended on me every night that we were lonely and I couldn't get no sleep
Cause I was plotting on anybody I seen that was getting money
You got it? I need it sorry, you don't need it more than me
And b***h, I'm tired of this struggle, ducking and dodging them puddles wondering if God ever hear the prayers I said
Cause every time I got a new hustle, that s*it done got me in trouble
You don't know how many f*****g tears I've shed
But f**k it, I'm letting loose
And they told me don't bend the rules
This is my winter blues
You know what I'm finna do
Anything necessary to make it up in the news
And I'm taking every muthaf*****g thing that I pick and choose
And I'm done with all the begging, I'm past that
All I did was get laughed at
You can go back track but you'll never get cash back
And they told me I'm half black
But I'm white as a lab rat
With a mic and a gas mask
I'm a light for your trash ass
And I might get the last laugh
Better fight if you back stab
With a knife in your backpack
All my life I've been jabbed at
But I fight like I'm Mad Max with a knife with the yeah yeah
You know, you know what the f**k I'm talking about
Listen
I don't give a f**k about your feelings
You don't have any idea just what I had to do to get what I want
All I wanted was to make a decent living
I can't even count it all my fingers how much s*it that I lost
N***a this is my job
These are my thoughts
I ain't never had s*it but for now you better give me what's yours
Damn I feel so loose, I'm about to pop s*it
What's a man to do when he's out of options
I ain't wanna do it but ...
Shhh, hold on
Be quiet
They're coming
Oh, no, no, no, no, no, no
Oh, no, no, no, no, no, no
Oh, no, no, no, no, no, no
No, no, no, no, no, no
I said gimme that, gimme that
Gimme that, gimme that
You heard what I said
N***a run that, run that
Run that, run that
You heard what I said
I said yeah
Oh, no, no, no, no, no, no
Oh, no, no, no, no, no, no
You really got some nerve talkin' bout me like
you're better cause you got your s*it together
and I'm really goin' through it
I don't think you have a clue what it feels like
doin' dirt knowin' in your heart you ain't wanna do it
I don't got one G bone in my body,
I ain't never g******g I don't know nothing about it
I don't claim to be a thug n***a or Illuminati
but there really ain't no tellin' what I do when I get rowdy
And I'm starvin' and my back against the wall and you ballin'
Everytime I see you all you do is flash hundreds
Everything on fleek I ain't never had nothin'
I just wanna be you when I feel like stuntin'
And lettin' loose and they told me don't bend the rules
This is my winter blues you don't know what I finna do
Anything necessary to make it up in the news
And I'm taking every muthaf****n' thing that I pick and choose
I'm done with that hating s*it
The f**k do you think this is
Damn it, you made me sick
Ain't no time for no babysit
This is the way we live and yes I'm okay with this
You think you all that and a bag of potato chips?
Could jump off a crazy bridge
And enough of you idiot kids
Go suckin' a lady d**k
I would never just make amends
With none of you shakin' hands in public
Yeah yeah like get the f**k out of my face, dude
Listen
I don't give a f**k about your feelings
You don't have any idea just what a n***a had to do to get loose
All I wanted was to make a decent living
I can't even count on all my fingers how much s*it I went through
What I went through
What I went through
And when s*it get real ain't really nothing that you can do
Yo, what's up, this is Joyner
I'm unable to take your call right now
Leave me a brief message and I'll get back to you
Peace
Yo, who the f**k do you think you are tryna give advice to a child?
My child
N***a, you the biggest piece of s*it I've ever met in my life
My n***a
You the last person that should be trying to give advice to anybody about anything
Let alone my f*****g kid
Acting like some f*****g role model or some s*it
N***a, no nobody wanna be like you
Stop it