Curious

Imagine if life was a game imagine if all this is fake
Imagine if everything ended and we go to heaven and meet all the greats
Imagine if there was no Drake imagine
If there was no Wayne would rappers be garbage
Would people be rappin would everyone still sound the same
Man nobody knows it all of the sudden I'm overthinkin
Sound like I'm trippin came to the states
Feel like I'm goin Lindsay tasted fluoride in this water I'm drinkin
I don't know how to make friends in this business
Seem like they all wanna win but not with me went to a party in hopes
For some kisses girl and her friends and they lookin delicious
I came up to em there was four of em
There was one of me I liked all of em
They liked none of me all this bubbly got me stumblin
Talked more with the one girl with the pretty fit
Cuz I saw thru her and the wall
She built she actin all that her friends were all wack
I asked why she being cold to me
And she said she don't like guys like me
Oh you mean smart and funny and has a big d**k
And doesn't have to fake s**t just to fit in
Maybe we're not meant to be acquainting 5'9 confidence
Through the roof not to mention
I'm 19 so are you we both still got lips
Let's put it to use then we smashed
That night she gave me the flu
Cough was not worth it
I got sick and sad man it gave me the blues
I started thinkin bout life all the s**t I been through at 14
When I didn't have friends or school or when I thought Nachos was Italian food
When I thought smoking cigarettes would make me cool all the nights
That I spent in my room I guess we could always improve
I miss my family miss my home
Wish I could visit a little more the journey's 20 hours flight too long
I only get to see em on my phone time does fly
I went from good wine to seein tears in my mom's eyes
I don't blame her though she used to feed me now I live alone
Doing things she don't know about but I'm always her angel always her angel
Man I wonder what my mom was thinkin when she realized
That her son's a little too famous a little too anxious
Went from havin no friends now he's singin on stages
I'm her youngest son she just hopin I
That I know what to do with my paper
When I think about it s**t I don't know
How I could live without it I just bought some s**t at the grocery
Some coconut water and some frozen meat this gotta be good for my dopamine
Sometimes I still miss the nicotine I've been nervous and vomiting
Doing shows don't even sound fun to me told the crowd
That I had food poisoning had a trash can side of the stage for me
Man I don't know why it happened to me
But I think I'm right where I'm supposed to be I think
It's meant to be I mean I think I'm meant to be put a kid
With a dream in a room full of books he gon read
Even though none of it's understood ay shouts out to the ones doing things
Everyone was afraid or unable to do man
The world needs more of you the world needs more like you
And I heard that the simplest choice that you choose ain't simple
It's actually huge and the older I get man the more
That its true don't believe in the hate just believe in the truth
I don't spend the bread I just know how to chase it
If the difference isn't here
I'll make it no I do not live for validation
F**k your comments and your momma's basement
Always rich because that's what name is greatest days are
On a daily basis RZA's f**kin with me man I made it
If I could man I would never change s**t