Dear Old Nicki (Explicit)

Maybe you died cuz everybody ask me where you at
I try to channel you in hopes that I could stare you back
But its like every intersection we just missed each other
You got your fans waitin tell me you ain't 6 feet under
And tell me that you coming back that you just to a break
Maybe I blamed you for everything that was my mistake
In hindsight I loved your rawness and I loved your edge
Cuz it was you who talked me down from jumpin off the ledge
Your earings bamboo  your long nails too
Your BMW everytime you came through
You was the braveheart
You stole wayne heart
You never switched it up
You played the same part
But I needed to grow
And I needed to know
That there were somethings inside of me that I need to show
So I just deaded you
Left you in all black
But damn old nicki
Please call back
You told me you'd come when I needed you
And you said it so sweetly I really knew
But I'm standing here calling I can't see you
But I am holding you  holding you  holding you to that
Yo  did I chase the glitz and glamour
Money  fame and power
Cuz if so that will forever go down my lamest hour
I shoulda kept you with me gettin at them nameless cowards
There was no match for you  couldn't defeat your prowess
I had to make them changes  I hope you understood
You see for every bad  I did a ton of good
But you was underground  and I was mainstream
I live the life now  that we would daydream
My only wish is you come enjoy it with me
Get on them conference calls  go meet them lawyers with me
The money came yea  tripled and quadrupled it
But I still miss us when we was on some stupid shit
But its still f**k the media
They ridiculed you  never believed in ya
They just deaded you
But dear old nicki
You told me you'd come when I needed you
But I am holding you  holding you holding you to that
And yes I'm holdin you  holdin you  holdin you
Oh yes I'm holdin you  holdin you  holdin you
To that