as if

Hyper aggressive if I'm honest
I can't stand to be alone
My friends are so progressive
They called me faggot a year ago
And I couldn't cut them off
Because then I'd be on my own
Being obsessive sounds depressing
But it's just the way it goes
Just the way it goes
And will that ever ******* change
As if I'm
As if I'm ever gonna change
As if I'm
As if I'm ever gonna change
As if I'm
As if I'm ever gonna change
As if I
Gonna change
As if I'm
Gonna change
Never gonna change
My friends on fentanyl I hope they're finding their peace
On life support for a week
I heard they died in their sleep
There's so much truth in the fiction don't know what to believe
There's so much money in addiction that I'm dying to need
Something more
Something more something more
I'm just dying to be
Something more
Something more
And will that ever ******* change
As if I'm
As if I'm ever gonna change
As if I'm
As if I'm ever gonna change
As if I'm
As if I'm ever gonna change
As if I
Gonna change
As if I
Gonna change
As if I
As if I
As if I
I wonder if I'll ever get it right
As if I as if I
I wonder if I'll ever find the words
As if I as if I
I wonder if I'll ever be enough
As if I as if I
I wonder if I'll ever ******* change
As if I'm
As if I'm ever gonna change
As if I'm
As if I'm ever gonna change
As if I'm
As if I'm ever gonna change
As if I as if I
Gonna change
As if I as if I
Gonna change
As if I
Never gonna change