Memories (I Don't Have)

Sometimes I think about why you left
Was it my fault
Was it easy
Sometimes I block it all better yet
I disconnect from all feelings
All my life I thought that
Actions speak louder than words
But I started thinking how
Different I'd be if I hurt you tell me
Don't deal in lies
Don't play with truth
Staying fine when the odds are stacked against you
Oh your advice of falling in love
I hear you telling me
Whatever happens I have your back
But the memories I don't have
I told myself you took nothing away
But then all of your shame
Became weight on my shoulders
Convincing myself it would all be okay
Like having faith
But win a war without soldiers
All my life I thought that
Actions speak louder than words
But I started thinking how
Different I'd be if I hurt you tell me
Don't deal in lies
Don't play with truth
Staying fine even when the world's against you
Oh your advice of falling in love
Oh I hear you telling me
Whatever happens oh I've got your back
But the memories I don't have
But the memories I don't have