Change

If ever you had said to me before
That I would live this life that I am
Living now I guess its all so strange
To feel the way I do inside but
Have so much that I could feel some
Pride for in my life so why is it that
I feel like this
How do I feel I've been here before
I've felt this
Retreat to a place a place within me
I need this  keep it all down bottled inside
It breaks me to torment again and
Torture me like it used to
I try and try to break away from all the hate
I'm feeling for everyone of you thats ever
Done me wrong  I need to justify the reasons
For the way I'm living I guess I can't cause
I don't feel like I deserve it
So now the waves they have subsided
And my soul is bleeding I can't take away
The shame I feel forgive me