Repentance

If I die tonight couldn't be nothin but transparent
Apparently you care for me like a parent
I swear it's the coldest winter ever upon my shoulders
Days are long; my nights are even longer
The weight so heavy on my back I can't move
Could somebody help me where do I turn to
Since I was a youngin I been gunnin
It all alone ain't asking for help I just carry it on my own
And turnin to God was for the weak-lins'
I'm lookin at life through such a weak lens
I can't see clear but it ain't tears in my eyes
It's sweat pourin down from the years I done tried
To be my own savior said I'd never fail
But never had the righteousness it took to save myself
So this is where I turn confess believe
That Jesus is the only savior that I'll ever need
I repent tonight
Yeah it's like I always seem to fall catch me can you catch me
Can you catch me 'fore I'm gone I'm gone tryin it on my own
I know I can't do it but still I'm just holdin on
And when you see me up yeah I'm really down
And when you see me smile there's really no one around
So if I let it go promise you catch me now
Ya just catch me now promise you catch me now
There I go again fallin
Tryin to stand on my own still I'm just crawlin
Tryin be the man I should be that's my callin
But no matter how hard I try I don't ever really drive that stop
I'm one the verge of bawlin often I'm feelin like I'm hopeless
Feelin like I failed I'm groaning
Cause I grit my teeth and I strive each moment
Tryna be strong but daily I've blown it
Man  I don't know what's go'n happen I see
Some change gotta happen in me
I'm weak and some kinda power's lackin in me
I need grace that'd be sweet
Is there anyone to turn to give grace and peace
Do I really gotta earn you
Can I be forgiven for the time that I burned through
I wanna learn and be freed
But I hear I gotta turn to believe please
Yeah it's like I always seem to fall catch me can you catch me
Can you catch me 'fore I'm gone I'm gone tryin it on my own
I know I can't do it but still I'm just holdin on
And when you see me up yeah I'm really down
And when you see me smile there's really no one around
So if I let it go promise you catch me now
Ya just catch me now promise you catch me now Ya catch me now
There I go again yeah I blew it
Everything I don't wanna do I keep doin
Steadily feelin stupid instead of makin excuses
I just need to face the music I need ya
I lean on my own strength but it's useless
Cause healing only come by them stripes and them bruises
I chunk deuces and turn towards you
But sometimes I turn right back to it
Why do I abuse all the grace that you given me
It's like I can't win man I still got sin in me
And I struggle just believin you forgiven me
Cause if I was you I would've banged out finished me
But we're not the same  mentally  thank God
Your grace is amazin look where you went for me
On them wooden beams took responsibility
For sin that you never did to call you a friend to me
Your ways are so high but you bent your knee
I keep fallin but you call to get on my feet
Keep walkin just what you started you will complete
Ima keep repentin til the day I leave
Yeah it's like I always seem to fall catch me can you catch me
Can you catch me 'fore I'm gone I'm gone tryin it on my own
I know I can't do it but still I'm just holdin on
And when you see me up yeah I'm really down
And when you see me smile there's really no one around
So if I let it go promise you catch me now
Ya just catch me now promise you catch me now Ya  catch me now
Yeah it's like I always seem to fall catch me can you catch me
Can you catch me 'fore I'm gone I'm gone tryin it on my own
I know I can't do it but still I'm just holdin on
And when you see me up yeah I'm really down
And when you see me smile there's really no one around
So if I let it go promise you catch me now
Ya just catch me now promise you catch me now Ya catch me now